You May Not Be My Friend After You Know This

Not sure why I haven’t told you before now but I believe I was afraid of being judged.  Do you ever feel that way – scared to share because someone may not like you or judge you for your decision?

Well I wasn’t sure how you would react when you knew that I got a tattoo.

Are you freaked out?

Are you thinking, “I would have never thought she would do that?”

Believe it or not, I wasn’t thinking about what you would think when I had it done on October 2, 2014.  What I was thinking about was my relationship with God and about the message He gave me back in 2009 when I began training for my first half marathon.

As you see above, the writing within the butterfly wings says “My Life Is Not My Own!”  If you are an avid reader of, a blog I been writing at for over three years, you are well aware of this message and how God has used this message in my life to remind me to live as a servant of Jesus Christ rather than living from my own agenda.

My agenda looks manipulated, I got it all together, look at me and please don’t hate me.

But God’s agenda looks like the abundant life of service, others before you, my path not yours, uncomfortable and risky.

I lived in my agenda for many years and it likes to sneak up on me from time to time.

Today I consciously choose God’s agenda that “my life is not my own” because it brings me to a place of clarity, confidence and contentment that nothing else can offer.

Ever since my transformational full marathon experience on New Year’s Day in 2011, I wanted this tattoo.  By the way, it is located on my right leg calf because I was running when God spoke those words in my heart.

Up to this point of my life, I had never had a tattoo before and never really thought about it but this message – this transformation that God did in my life was something I wanted to remember and apply daily.

What finally made my decision to take the plunge was a devastating event – a dear friend, client and sister in Christ took her life.

You might be thinking why would you want to remember such a thing?  Well, this beautiful women most people didn’t see.  She was one of my biggest cheerleaders.  She wasn’t flashy. She didn’t like attention.  She was sometimes withdrawn but loved children.

This message of “my life is not my own” became so loud that day.  It was like God saying to me, “I want you to see others through My eyes and build them up with My word.”

To me this tattoo is a daily reminder to…

Live daily God’s calling and message in my life!

Love those that want to hide out and not be seen!

Lift or build others up to believe in God and their purpose!

So does that make sense?  Are we still friends?  Hope so!  🙂

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  • Michelle

    I don’t have a tattoo. If I ever got one, it would be scripture, likely near my heart.

    • Michelle D. Howe

      What scripture(s) is your life verse do you believe Michelle?

      • Michelle

        Trust in the Lord with all your heart
        and lean not on your own understanding;
        in all your ways submit to him,
        and he will make your paths straight.

  • Sandy Johnson

    I don’t have a tattoo, but have wanted one for several years. It would be either a dragonfly with a verse or dolphins and a verse. Maybe both! Dolphins to me represent my youth and the carefree days of the beach growing up in Florida, playful and fun! A dragonfly has so much meaning to me, mostly it represents maturity and change, a shift in your mental thought that produces growth, resiliency and unbelieveably strength, seeing past the surface of things into the heart. Both of these represent a specific time in my life that God was moving. Maybe my finish line word? Completely Free and Renewed!

    Ps. I still love you and I love the tattoo!
    #howeawesome #mylifeisnotmyown

    • Michelle D. Howe

      Love that Sandy!! Thank you 🙂 P.S. Love you Finish line words!!!

  • Daisy Woodward Vanzandt

    I didn’t judge and would never. …instead was proud of you for overlooking the pain and moving forward with a dream and desire to occur.

    • Michelle D. Howe

      Thank you Daisy for your constant friendship over the years. Your encouragement means means so much to me. Love you girl!

  • Love your new tattoo!!
    I got a tattoo this year, too! And I’m 42 years old. 🙂
    I have a tri-spiral on my right foot. It represents new beginnings of motherhood and my there beautiful children. It also represents my new beginning and new life in Christ and the trinity. I love it!!

    • yourconfidencebuilder

      Love it Linda!! I’m going to be 41 in a couple weeks. 🙂

  • Cindy Weaver Herendeen

    I have two tattoos, both of which are on my ankles. The first one I got was with my sister and we got different breast cancer ones in memory of our mom who passed away at the age of 34 (my sister then got breast cancer a couple of years later) and the second one is a mother/daughter celtic knot that I got with my daughter. Both are very meaningful to me. There is probably another one in my future…….but I need to think about it more to decide what I really want.

    • yourconfidencebuilder

      Love it Cindy! Thank you for sharing about your tats. Also, thanks for becoming a new reader. Many blessings to you!! Michelle 🙂

  • Michelle Weir Skibik

    I think your tattoo is beautiful; morso, because of its message and reflection.
    I don’t have any tatoos. In the past, there hasn’t been anything I’ve wanted “for life”.
    After my daughter’s death, I have wanted one. I am just trying to think of it find I e that is unique to Morgan and God, because she is home with Him and the reason I have Hope.